Before they left, they said we may see a stray cat who'd been hanging around the property lately.
The next day our little friend showed up and she followed us around as we explored the grounds.
She's obviously fending for herself because she eats everything she catches. House cats hunt for sport, this one hunts for food. And she spends all of her time here. You'd think if she had a home nearby she would spend at least some of her time there.
Also, part of her ear is missing so we assume she's had a scuffle with a foe at some point. But she's no feral. This is a domesticated cat who has had to learn the hard ways of the wild. And I don't know what to do about it.
When we go outside she's waiting on the door step. If we've been gone all day she shows up within minutes of our return. And we don't feed her so that's not why she sticks around. She must enjoy our company and we are flattered by it. Quite frankly she's very likable. She's loyal to us and seems genuinely interested in everything we have to say.
One night I took the binoculars out to stargaze and she was there in the dark. My neck got sore from looking up so I laid back in the grass to glass the sky. She gently crept onto my belly, curled up and began to purr. This intimacy broke my heart since I had so little to give in return. Sure, I stroked her with reassurance and maybe that's all she wanted.
I didn't want to disrupt her contentment so I stayed there much longer than intended. But eventually I had to go in and felt like a cad for leaving her alone in the dark. I know she was disappointed.
She's scrawny and should be fed but if you feed a cat, you own a cat and we're just not ready for that.
She was waiting on our doorstep again this morning. I don't know what to do.
We went to meet our neighbors on the other side of the jungle today and asked if they wanted a cat. No, they have three cats, three dogs, a herd of goats, many chickens, etc. I guess that would explain why our girl doesn't hang around over there.
The neighbor asked if it had the tip of it's ear cut off. Yes! "Oh, it must be a stray from the TNR program". More specifically; trap, neuter, vaccinate, eartip, and return feral cats. It's a local organization that does just that.
The neighbor said it's probably not a good idea to feed it because its survival depends on its hunting skills.
I find it hard to believe that a feral cat could be so friendly. A friendly feral? More likely an over-zealous TNR new-hire.
Once home, Chris and I built a fire under the starry sky and enjoyed a concert of crickets and tree frogs. Kitty curled up in Chris' lap for a peaceful slumber. She'd make a wonderful pet.
Her diet consists mainly of frogs, lizards, and insects. I saw her eat an entire bullfrog over the course of two days. A house-cat wouldn't do that. Ironically, she seems happy and well adjusted for one who is leading such a tough life.
I've been terribly conflicted about what to do about this. We really can't bring her home with us to Michigan. Cats don't travel well and besides, as much as we love this one, we don't want that responsibility right now. We don't even have houseplants, for god's sake. Maybe if we weren't able to travel it would be different. And yes, we'd love a cat just like this someday, but not now.
I fed her table scraps yesterday and she ate voraciously. Poor thing.
This morning I went out to sit with her as usual but she wasn't there. After a brief search, we packed up for a canoe trip. When we got back tonight she still wasn't there so I went out to call for her every half hour or so. The anxiety and guilt was killing me.
We'll go to town for groceries tomorrow. I'll get cat food just in case she does come back.
Kitty is back after a two day absence! Pussy cat, pussy cat, where have you been!?
I felt a mixture of emotions upon seeing her - both elation and disappointment. Elated that she was safe but disappointed that she hadn't found a new life and secure family. So I'm back to my quandary.
I fed her half cup of dry cat food and she ate like a pirate.
Our neighbor suggested we put an ad in the local paper so we did:
Extremely affectionate young female cat. Short hair, white/tan. Neutered. Great disposition! Free to good home.
We have good/bad news about Kitty. We got a call today. And a very nice young couple came by tonight to meet her. They have four children and live nearby.
Their cat is very old and hasn't many days remaining. They said our ad spoke to them.
As they drove off with her we wanted to cry but it was for the best. We knew that.
Every night before bed I'd been sitting with her on the porch. I don't know what I'll do tonight. Maybe just pretend she's there with me.
We were deeply disappointed that she wasn't waiting on the porch for us in the morning. Even though we knew it was unlikely, there was some hope she might find her way back to us.
I told the adopters that if there were any "issues" whatsoever to please just bring her back. But after meeting her they said, "There won't be any issues".
It was a fitful night as I agonized over whether we had made a terrible mistake.
We went to the beach today. I worried the whole time they might call so I was anxious to get back home.
But there was no call.
A little rain fell.
I still call for her when I step into the yard at night. Still look into the shadows for some hint of movement, waiting to change my tone from the voice you use when summoning someone, to the less plaintive and much more preferable one you use to welcome them back home.









